Can I still get *into* heaven If I kill myself.?!
La Dispute - King Park
yep, my life
Beautiful sunset, passionate kiss
These things mean nothing when you can’t come to terms with
The person who you are and who you’re meant to be
Are separated by a sea of insecurities
I’ve been digging up from underneath an avalanche
And its taken twenty years to see
Our reality is our own to create
And the sooner that you realize the sooner you can change!
Senses fail… :(
I Give blood, to prove to myself, That I can matter to somebody else.
I feel so alone, so fucking sad, and nobody understand that because they always see me with my huge smile making jokes, but deep inside, I just want to cry, and be with her…
Now every time I pick myself up I just fall down faster, So what’s the use of trying To be something I’m not, I’ve still got hope that I can Fix this all with one disaster, I’ll die alone, Ashamed without a note.
Senses Fail - The Martyr.
:(
I can’t find happines……
since my girlfriend broke up with me and all this stuff have been happening and fuck this is how i feel i don’t know why but this is how i feel fuck, hope you like the damn song:
lyrics:
I just want to feel alive.
And love myself from the in and the outside.
Cause every time that I start to feel whole,
I knock myself on the ground because it’s all that I’ve known
Just like the streets burn a hole through your shoe.
My soul has been worn out too,
I’m 25 and I still don’t fit in
Directionless, like a blind man painting
Mother I’m so sorry, I can’t go on like this.
The lifeboats are leaving with or without me.
What’s the point of falling in love?
If I don’t love myself.
What’s the point of being alive if all I want is out.
So I thought that it only feels right
To make the seizures they danger my mind.
Lay late at night on the black and blue moons.
I question in the reasons that I self-abuse.
I’m so pathetic.
It makes me sick.
I’m a fingerless pianist.
I see reflections.
I clench my fists.
I’m a violin without the strings.
Mother I’m so sorry, I can’t go on like this.
The lifeboats are leaving with or without me.
What’s the point of falling in love?
If I don’t love myself.
What’s the point of being alive if all I want is out.
There is no love.
There’s only this:
Just lust and lies, and selfishness.
A black hole where the sun once was.
I’m never falling back in love.
‘Cause it has never been enough.
Ever since I was a young boy I’ve been alone.
Now that I’ve become a man, the feeling’s grown.
The therapy and through the pills, I can let go.
But what about the fuckin fact:
I’m still alone.
What do you do when you got nothing left?
Give up! Give up! And hope for the best!
I’m thrown into the ocean and I,
And I feel sick.
Waiting on a nameless rescue ship.
What do you do when you got nothing left?
Give up! Give up! And hope for the best!
I throw it in the ocean.
I, and have to sit.
Waiting on a nameless rescue ship.
Mother I’m so sorry, I can’t go on like this.
The lifeboats are leaving with or without me.
What’s the point of falling in love?
If I don’t love myself.
What’s the point of being alive if all I want is out
Yeip :)
